It’s September already and two months after, it’s going to be December. I want to have an Orlando vacation with my family. Walt Disney World, Sea World or Universal Studio would be fine. I would not complain much if I can have a 3 days and 2 night’s package for free. OK, OK…I’m dreaming. But then who knows, somebody UP there heard this little dream and would grant it. Miracles do happen, if you believe…

My grandmother is admitted again in the hospital. She landed in ICU this time. I felt a little guilty because I have not visited her as much as I wanted to. I have been so preoccupied with a lot of things and a lot of it is made up of immature choices. My lame excuse is, I am so stressed I need to unwind. Don’t get wrong. Unwinding for simply means, being alone most of the time and just day dream that one day, I will have to reap the harvest of my hard work. So, anyway, I wanted to give my grandmother something that would make her feel that I love her and something that would always remind her of me every time she looks at that something. I am thinking of a Cheap Vertical Blinds. Why? Because number one, I know she will love it. She likes blinds. Number two, it would shield her from the sun especially when will be lying down on her bed near the window. Number three, it symbolizes care because it brings comfort when it’s sunny and filters the sun. She can just easily peep outside if she gets tired of looking inside the four wall corners of her room. Why blinds and not curtain? Blinds are classier. And my grandmother deserves it.

My husband is part of the PTO in our daughter’s school. I get to hear him wine about being an officer. He is not quite good with that. He always tells me. I assured him that I will always be behind him with all of this since it’s for our daughter’s sake. One of the things that they do is of course to raise funds for the school. There has been a lot of school fundraiser activity that they did. PTO fundraisers are always fun especially if everybody will cooperate most especially the kids. PTO Today can help a lot in getting ideas on fund raising. Being a leader at work, thinking about it seems easy for me. But for my husband, it was always a challenge for him to lead. But there are a lot of helpful resources that is available online. I told him that it may be challenge for him but once this is all done, he will be so proud of himself and will add more to his confidence that he can do it. In life, you don’t get all the easy tasks. Sometimes, we also get the tough ones. But if we quit without trying, then it’s like accepting the fact that we lose. So the choice is really up to us now.

Modern Furniture is something that I wanted to have. But more than that, I wanted to have a home. I may have everything in our house, but if I don’t have peace, love and harmony in our house, that would still not compliment everything. An absence in any of my loved ones would bring so much sadness in our home and no expensive furniture could replace that. I was watching Glee and in one of their episode, I was touched by Home. A house would not be a home without love and the person you love living in it. So now, I have reduced my standard of having a beautiful home. It’s not about the furniture but it’s the people living in it. The kind of love you share with each other. The happiness you have having each other around is what matters. Wherever there is laughter ringing, someone smiling someone dreaming, we can live together there, because love will be our home. Wherever there is children shouting and playing, no matter how messy your house will be after, we can live together there because love will be our home. This is easier said than done. And it takes a lot of patience though. But at the end of the day, when you lay down your bed before you go to sleep, you think. Do I have everything I want or have everything I need? Then it would not be hard anymore.

Last week, we had an appreciation day for Team Managers. I got a gift check for diamond peel. I was thinking, “what am I going to do with this?” I don’t have anything to peel on my face…I don’t have any adult acne or something. Then I thought of giving it to my mother. I did not regret I did, coz I saw how happy she was when she got the gift check…Glad I did it…

My husband is going to Singapore tomorrow. I would not be able to see him for 6 days. I know I will be left with the kids at home and as early as now, I am trying to figure out on how to get rid of my boredom since I will be sleeping in our room alone. Getting a Slingbox maybe and watch TV the whole time. I am on leave from work and I promise myself that I leave all office work at work. I hope I won’t get tempted.

There are times when Comet vouchers would come in handy. Especially when pay day is fast approaching and the money that you have left is just good enough to survive until your next paycheck arrives. I am in this moment now. My dad sent me a text message saying that he wants to borrow money because he needs to pay something. As much as I wanted to give, I don’t have extra. It breaks my heart. But what can I do? I can only do so much.

On the other hand, one way or the other Comet electricals eased my guilt of not being able to help out. In fact, my guilt has turned to “want”. I wanted to have so much of the stuff that I don’t have yet. I know I can’t afford to have everything right here and now. The plasma TV, the Xbox 360 and all. Who needs them? Nobody I guess. But who wants them? That is the question.

So, going back to my guilt. To compensate, I thought, “Would Comet discount codes do?” The hardest part is when you wanted to help but your hands are tied as well and you just could not do anything at all. You just have to say a silent prayer. May God touch his heart not to feel sorry for himself and not to feel sorry for me. Because I am supposed to help and I was not able to. And it’s breaking me right now.

I attended a baptism ceremony last Sunday. As I was watching my friend carry her baby I saw the happiness and the glow on her face. I felt happy for her. Gone are the days when prenatal vitamins was all she took. Ok, that’s exaggerated. Well, that’s what I see her take every time when she was still carrying the baby inside her. And now those days payed off. I see a beautiful angel on her arms. And it’s quite a pleasurable sight to watch.

I have friends who smoke. Even family members who does. I don’t condemn them but I am just expressing this concern. I may not understand what the feeling of not being able to smoke but for goodness sake, if you don’t love yourself enough then love those whom you care. Those cigarillos may ease stress or whatever it does to you. Remember that everything in excess is always bad… I care for you that is why I’m saying this….

School has just started for my son. He is already in 4th grade. As I was covering his books, I scanned a few pages and reminisced those days when I was still a student. I feared most of all, the subject Math. I always had Math problems. I am so slow with numbers. And until now my husband still teases me with simple math equations which I would take time to answer. I admit until now I still need Math help. My fear of numbers worsens when I got into college. I dreaded the subject Algebra. I really cried out to my husband who was my boyfriend at that time and always seek Algebra help from him. I’m glad I had a boyfriend who took up engineering course so I had a Free Algebra help from him. Going back to my son’s book, I know I will have to encounter Math problems along the way as I will do Homework help for him. Fractions is just one of those I need to prepare myself with. Too much for the ranting here, I need to cross the bridge when I get there. I know there is Tutor Vista that offers 24 by 7 online tutoring. And not just for Math but for all subjects for only $99.99. Well, I might not need it for the moment but at least I know where to run in times of need.