As I was riding a taxi on the way home, I noticed that the cab I was riding was not in a good condition. I don’t know much about cars, but just hearing the sound of it, I know that it was. I think it needs some New Auto Parts or whatever. I almost lost my temper because I got dizzy from the abrupt stopping and going of the car. I wanted to get off. But when I looked at the driver, he was really sweating out wanting to make the car run so he could get paid. I felt a tiny hurt in my heart and a feeling of sympathy to the guy. Instead, I said a silent prayer and asked God to fix it even until when I get home so I can pay him. I just felt bless today that I have job and I don’t have to literally sweat just to get paid. Thank you Lord for all the blessings!

In a while, I will visit my grandmother. I feel so guilty not being able to visit her lately. I promise my self that I will do that today. She is already old and not in good condition. I wanted to buy her something that she likes. But she got diabetes and she likes sweets. I could not buy her that. Should I buy her some medicare supplements? I don’t think so. She’d get furious. OK, I think I will buy her fruits. I think that would work. I hope. As I’m writing this post, I am silently saying a prayer for her. May she live her life to the fullest till she can finally say it’s over. Love you Mie! (I call her that.)

Finding security is never easy. You really would not know the future. As a married woman I seldom worry about my security as a wife. As a mother, I worry about the security about my kid’s future. As a career woman, I worry about the security about my job. Fear for the unknown is what I call it. Most people get their security by being literally being insured. They insure their kids education, they insure their life they even have motor trade insurance. Well, I really don’t know what it means. I just came across that somewhere. But my point is, is it the only solution to insecurity. What about trying to invest on love, patience, understanding and perseverance? I don’t’ know… That is why there is a question mark at the end of that sentence. I don’t have any of that insurance at all. I have only one thing that I hold on to… I have faith. And the rest, I leave it all to the future. If I buy a car, I might insure it. But I did not buy my husband and my kids so why do I need to insure them as well? A question mark at the end too…

I am thinking of a good fallback in case I decide to resign from my job. Working in a call center is never easy. No matter what your position is. I don’t take calls, but still there are a lot of deliverables to meet. You don’t have any idea of how hard my job is. So I don’t dream of being here forever. I wanted to have my own business one day. I wanted to be an Event Organizer or a Wedding Planner. Weddings are always special to me. I know how it feels when you prepare for a wedding. Been there, done that. So I can totally relate to future brides. The anxiety you get while preparing for your big day. You worry about budget. As much as possible you want to have a bargain of almost everything. But you get into a dilemma between cheap and good quality. You worry about where to get cheap wedding invitations, tokens, flowers, choir, band and so many more. Not just weddings. You think about how worried those young debutants are when their 18th birthday is on its way. A lot of events happen in a person’s life and my passion is to be part of it and feel the fulfillment to see those happy, contended faces at the end of the day.

One of the things that make people unhappy is if they are not satisfied with what they have or what they are. However, few people know that being happy is possible. All you have to do is just be contented with what you have or who you are. What is the secret of contentment? A grateful heart is the secret of contentment.

What are the barriers of contentment?

1. Bitterness – when you hold grudges, you will never be happy. If you are bitter because your boss chose to promote somebody else instead of you, if you are bitter because your best friend has more suitors than you, if you are bitter because you don’t have the latest gadgets. You will never ever be contented.
2. Envy – one of the 10 commandments is “Though shall not covet your neighbor’s goods” It is self-explanatory. Not only it is a sin, it ruins your happiness because you always consider yourself a loser because you do not have what others have.
3. Wants – you are having too many ambitions. Some even impossible ambitions. You always end up failing because you never stop. Ambitions are good if you aspire for things that are reachable and possible.

Yes, it is hard not to have these things above. We are not saints. We are not mutants and most of all we are not robots. If we seek possible sources to be contented and control bitterness, envy and wants, then why not try it.

So where do we get sources of Contentment?

1. Humility – real humility is right estimation of oneself. You do not have to pretend to be poor if you are not. Do not pretend to be dumb if you are not, just because you want to look humble. Do not prove your selves to others. Let others find it out themselves.
2. Gratitude- contentment starts with a grateful heart as I have said. Always and always count your blessings and never count things that you have not.
3. Devotion – always have constant communication to your god. If you are a Christian, pray. If you are a Catholic then hear mass.

So what is in it for us if we are contented? It is simple. If we are contented then we have:

1. Joy – taste the fruit of gratitude. Have you tried what real joy is? Start to be grateful.
2. Simplicity – when you reduce your wants to simplicity, then you are rich.
3. Confidence – you will not have any insecurity because you are contented.

Now who would not want any of these?