If I am to get my life ensured now, and I take the Insurance exam, I am surely to fail. Not that I am suicidal or something. I simply mean, would stress make you fail in that life insurance test they will conduct before they grant you your insurance? I don’t know. But it being stressed is part of it, I am so busted. I heard there are some Life Insurance company that has No Medical Exam Life Insurance required. Then let’s go for it. Have ourselves insured. I used to be confident before that let the future take care of itself. But honestly, I am not sure anymore. I hope I’d get that confidence back. I want to be accountable for everything that is going on with me right now. I don’t want to point fingers to people behind me, in front of me or the person beside me. In the test of life, you should be accountable with every decision you make whether they give out a positive or negative result. It was you who took the test in the first place. And you should blame anybody for it. So now, I am taking accountability of what’s going on with me right now.

Modern Furniture is something that I wanted to have. But more than that, I wanted to have a home. I may have everything in our house, but if I don’t have peace, love and harmony in our house, that would still not compliment everything. An absence in any of my loved ones would bring so much sadness in our home and no expensive furniture could replace that. I was watching Glee and in one of their episode, I was touched by Home. A house would not be a home without love and the person you love living in it. So now, I have reduced my standard of having a beautiful home. It’s not about the furniture but it’s the people living in it. The kind of love you share with each other. The happiness you have having each other around is what matters. Wherever there is laughter ringing, someone smiling someone dreaming, we can live together there, because love will be our home. Wherever there is children shouting and playing, no matter how messy your house will be after, we can live together there because love will be our home. This is easier said than done. And it takes a lot of patience though. But at the end of the day, when you lay down your bed before you go to sleep, you think. Do I have everything I want or have everything I need? Then it would not be hard anymore.

Spending money wisely is one of the things that I an still trying to master. As a mother, its so hard to keep right on budget. Everytime you are at the grocery, you get anxiouse once the barcode scanner the item. You’ll never know how much you’re gonna pay for all that you just bought. Sometimes I’d wish that one day, I’d never have to worry about money anymore. Waiting for that day to come…

As a mother, it is important for me that my children finishes school and get a good life when they grow up. I have a 4rth grader now. I wanted him to get a Ph.D. in Psychology when he grows up. Psychology was my first choice when I got into college. I did not push through with it because I was lazy back then. And when I asked some friends who took up Psychology as their college course, they told me that they have to study a lot and had to do a lot of memorization. So I chickened out. My little girl on the other hand who though still in pre-school, I wanted her to take up B.S. in Nursing and be a nurse. I wanted to be one as well. But if I chickened out taking up Psychology, I could never imagine my self taking up nursing classes with sleepless nights studying and all. Yes I know that I was not a good student. So I ended up taking Mass Communication. I don’t have to memorize a lot of stuff. But if I have one regret when I was still a student, this is when I did not take up m.s. in education. Because until now I still have this passion to teach. But I’m happy still because though I don’t have a formal training in education at least I still have that opportunity to teach today. And that is teaching a lot of spoiled brat adults on how to keep their job!

This summer, I want to spend time with my kids as much as possible. In spite of my busy schedule, I really want to find time and hang out with them. I am planning to go camping with them. We have a backyard so the place would not be a problem. I want to have outdoor grills so we can grill hotdogs and mallows together. They have a pile of story books that I can read to them. We can also build a small campfire. We can practically have the whole night story telling and eating. I will have to convince my husband though to join us so he can play the guitar for us so we can sing our favorite songs. I know my kids are going to love this. It’s a family affair and I know that it will bring them good memories as they grow old. I have to plan this carefully and as much as possible would not tell them yet because I want to surprise them. They will never be kids again so I have to make the most out of it now. Once they grow old, I know its going to be a different phase.

It’s payday today. But I am not so happy about it. Because as a mother, when I get my pay, first thing that I do is pay the bills. Both I and my husband have assigned bills to pay. I pay this and he pays that is our set-up at home. After both I and my husband would always go to the grocery together and pay 50-50 of the total grocery amount paid. At the end of the day, I look at my wallet and I only have enough left to survive for the next 15 days. I wish I could get OvernightPrints.com coupon and get discounts on groceries every time. But it is always a consolation that this only happens every 30th. We don’t have major bills to pay during the 15th of the month. So there you go. That’s a quick overview of my financial status. I am still happy that I have a good paying job. I am well compensated and I am grateful about that. But sometimes I just want to pour out my undesirable emotion especially in this time of the month. But then after this, I got to move on. Work hard, get paid and pay the bills again. That’s the cycle of my life.

One way or the other, we always encounter storms in our life. Those people whom we least expect to be our friends suddenly become our shock absorber. I can never thank God enough for friends who stood by me when I was down. Those who don’t even bother to question my insanity but was just simply there and listened. For the first time in 3 days since the storm struck, today was my first time to cry. I cried and let all those unwanted feeling out from my system. My eyes right now is swelling a little bit. I am planning to wear an eye glasses to work later. Wish I had one that would hide these swollen eyes. One that would make me look happy in spite of what I am going through. Wish I can crawl under the table and snuggle myself there until this storm goes away. But I am little bit OK now though. Now that I have cried, I know I can move on. Once again, thanks to my friends who never left me, even to friends who did not know I am in a storm, but managed to make me laugh, you never know how much you made me feel better. Thank you!

Today is my grandmothers 80th birthday. My cousins and I are preparing something for her. We wanted to surprise her. This day is always so special to us since we, my cousins and I were all raised by her. I am thinking of buying nice gifts for her. He loves accessories like necklaces and dangling earrings. So my cousin and I went shopping for things that we would give her. But most of all I know that she will be happy today because her children, grand children and even her great-grandchildren will be gathered as we will all be celebrating her birthday today. Happy Birthday Mie.

This Wednesday will be the first day of Lenten Season. My husband and I already made plans for that day. As devout Catholics, we are planning to go to confession and attend Mass after since its Ash Wednesday. It is very important in our family that we follow the Catholic tradition of Lent. Our kids are also very much aware with this. My 9 year old son has not gotten away with this. And so will my 5 year old daughter. I am looking for the day of her first communion already though it’s not going to happen in the next 2 years. I am eager already to send out communion invitations for her.

In a while we will be leaving to go to my son’s school for their annual Family Day. And this year, it falls during Valentines Day. Amidst the busyness that is going on preparing for the things that we need to bring to school and preparing for the things that my husband would be bringing for his business trip a11:00 AM today,still I am feeling the spirit of valentines today. My kids are so excited for today. However my husband and I already made plans for our valentines celebration when he gets back tomorrow. We did not give each other valentine presents. Though I received valentine cards both from my kids. It seems like my husband and I already gave each other save the date postcards. We already know that this day is supposed to be our day. But due to some situations that we could not control, we had to postpone it a day after. But the day or the event should not matter after all. It’s what keeping the love alive, every single day matters most. Falling in love is really easy. But staying in love is what always counts. So to all those lovers out there, you really don’t have to wait for Valentines Day to show love to each other. Let everyday be a valentines day. Stay in love everyone.